Mindbender

ih udah gila ya kamu!

lebih gila dari ahmadinejad atau sadam hussein, eh apa sihhh, lagian ngapain malem-malem gini masih berurusan sama kabel kabel semrawut bikin puyeng, sambil beres-beresin barang ngga jelas demi sesuatu yang baunya aja kamu ngga tau. ih udah gila. kayanya gara2 exam period mendekat nih. atau kebanyakan ke perpus? tsaaah alesaaan aja. padahal sebenernya sih emang lagi labil ajah. hayo ngaku, ngga ada yang tau juga selaen buntelan satu dan buntelan dua, esther aja ga tau kan? iyalah, klo doi tau, udah kebayang dia bakal bilang apa. "eh udah gila lo ya! ngapain juga mending sini gue jodohin sama lelaki jerman yang terkenal tukang protes" ih ga mau ah. tukang protes sama tukang protes bakal jadi apa? yang ada peperangan tunggul ametung tiap hari!

waktu menunjukan pukul 01.56 AM padahal besok pagi kudu jam 10 teng udah nangkring di the connection siap-siap pasang tampang jaim senyum-senyum sama director ganteng tanpa cincin kawin. ih siapa tau diumpetin. namanya juga lelakiiihh! wah project tinggal 2 hari lagi dan abis itu selamat tinggal mas Nigel yang selalu duduk di other side of the table. yah namanya juga dogsbody, duduknya di pojokan sambil ngelel liat mas ganteng yang memimpin meeting.

dengan kecerewetan tujuh wanita yang ngga perlu saya sebutkan namanya, bikin seantero busaba mesem-mesem. tapi namanya juga girl talk, makin dibumbuin makin seruuu. dan semua keceriaan gila bikin sakit perut ini bikin saya lupa soal ritual tiap malam. dari operasi kelopak mata sampe lelaki pemikat ABG semuanya dikupas tuntas dikuliti habis. hmm, ngga sabar untuk nunggu temen-temen pulang ke london. biar banyak ajakan maen lagi. biar ngga gila di kamer. eh tapi ini handouts apa kabar? bukan sulap bukan sihir, ayo baca lagi!

and deep down here i know it will fade away. it will. trust me.

as i’ve been counting down the days and now i just got the email that it was postponed (again) until next month. i have to add up more patience and wait until end of July or even worse, early August. is this really worth waiting? yes it is (talking to myself. nope, actually, convincing myself). but it sounds fun though, many fascinating things happened, and the decision to extend it came from the person itself, so the journey must be quite an experience. and i know he enjoys every single minute of it. well i don’t mind receiving more and more emails saying that so many new things being experienced and so many interesting stuff being discovered. it’s a process of finding himself. i don’t mind to check my inbox every morning and smile happily when there’s a long email received telling me that…

yes, stay safe. please do.

"O God, you are my Lord. There is none worthy of worship except You. I rely upon You, and You are the Great Lord of the Throne. Whatever God wills happens, and whatever He does not will does not happen. There is no power or strength except by God. I know that God is able to do anything, and that God knows all. O God I seek refuge in You from the evil in myself and every creature that You have given power over us. Verily my Lord is on the straight path. (Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him)"

and noh noh, i won’t say it and hope you will realise from all the stupid signs and inklings. well do you realise it? do you? do youuu? ah you’re to dense, nevermind! *giggles*

ahem, anyway having a temper tantrum in a small claustrophobia-inducing room called library preparing my FFFFFIINNAALL EEEXXAM! *faints* and i’ve done my dissertation! HOORAYYY! *standing applause* ah boring topic, aaanywayy, i really enjoy the time without talking, only staring at the screen or listening to you mumbling nonsense but still, i’m all ears. yes. COMPLETELY. all huge and wide ears.

i never thought it would be like this,i mean i’ve known you since pre-historic era and still you are one of the most crispiest (backsound: moi biting deep-fried KFC, krriuuk!) chaps i’ve ever met. people change. conversation changes. sex appeal changes.  weell there’s something that doesn’t change.. *winks* anyway, i love every single minute that we stupidly spend. love it to the tiniest atomic bit. luuuuuuuuuuurve it! *blarrr!* i just exploded. oh dear, what am i writing here? it’s already too long to re-type, so better be like this, it’s my present emotional state though.

(shit can’t write in japanese character here)

"chikadzukeru kana?  furimuite kureru kana?

ashita no koto wa dare mo wakannai kara" (Melody-So Into You)

cheesy song, but i love it though ^^;;

okay, back to my handouts, the appeal decision in William Hill v British Horseracing Board is blah blah..

"besok lagi" katanya.

iya besok lagi. dan besoknya. dan besoknya. dan besoknya. mudah-mudahan. ah. teknologi. saya cinta teknologi. menembus ruang tanpa batas mana gratis. lucu juga. ngga nyata tapi tetep aja bisa ketawa-ketawa. beda pulau tapi tetep aja bisa adu argumen sambil sedikit berantem. bisa denger lagu yang sama. bisa lihat indahnya full moon sama-sama. siapa tahu kisahnya lain lagi kalo mediumnya berbeda. siapa tahu. selama menghayal belum dilarang maka saya akan tetap menikmati.

"And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." (Kahlil Gibran)

ok i’ve been thinking a lot about this lately, because lots of my friends are leaving for the summer and back to London only for the exams. the LLM gang is going to finish afterwards. so sad. i bet i’m gonna burst into tears when it’s finish.

here are some people that i am gonna miss sooo much after leaving this course.

Esther

ok enough words about her, she’s been with me since my first days here. got lost together. sharing flat and its stories. mindnight tea. guys. tears. laugh. pubs. clubs. parties. cooking. grocery shopping. she’s there for me. always. she’s like an older sister that God forgot to give. i’m gonna miss her the most! once she said "i dunno what i’m supposed to do if next year i have a problem and i can’t find you in the kitchen" ..

Rinita

she’s a parrrttyyyygoeerr! she’s the coolest girl i’ve ever met, very easy-going, pretty and fun! we’ve chatted a lot, even on MSN, about guys to their tiniest detail. heehee. and she really knows how to have fun and enjoy life! damn this girl really knows how to party. even though sometimes she’s too energetic and drains out my energy, but all in all she’s loads of fun!

Karl

He’s DA guy! i mean, he’s so witty and has a great sense of humour that you need from a best friend. He’s a guy that you can laugh together with and make silly comments about anything without feeling like an idiot. He’s my coffee break guy in the library, everytime my brain feels like combusted, just poke his shoulder and he’ll come with me to the cafetaria. Oh! one more thing, he’s got this really good sense of music! he’s transferred lotsa songs to add up my epic iPod songs collection.

Ralf

this german guy really swears A LOT! he somehow manages to find gaps to be filled with swear words and he does it perfectly. i have to say that he’s the smartest guy in the class. he’s got everything in his head but he never acts snobbish. never. in fact, he’s so fun to be with and he talks rubbish most of the times (yeah, beer has bad influence on you ^^;;). Esther and I are gonna miss our sudden visits to Lodge House to have drink at Captain Kidd or have BBQ. a lot!

Laurent

it’s because an apple-cinnamon cake! once we made this cake together for the last session of our class and we had a really good time! he told a story where he always gets stopped by London Transport officers because they think he’s a terrorist. they even get a dog to sniff his bag! blooodyy helll! he’s soo hillarious! this guy miaows and woof-woofs all the time he sees a cute girl. and when he’s with Ralf they turn out to be double-dynamic stooges. damn funny.

(to be continued)

this is what i call exam fever!

these people normally smile and chat a lot, that’s why i like going to the library, but now i can feel it, the tension is hell man! they start exchanging notes, do intense group discussion and asking questions like "have you done your reading on originality?" or "how’s your dissertation going?" or "so are you going to answer questions about database?" OMG, ah i mean DOUBLE OMG! *faints*

it feeeeels.. FRENZY! as so many handouts to read and so many topics to comprehend. oh, to sum up the pain, this is the dissertation editing period! people sound rele sick of their dissertation, yeah, so am i. i can’t be objective anymore in reading it, i dunno whether what i’ve written is crap or awesome. heck i don’t care, i just want to finish! no more editing, no more westlaw or heinonline. i just want to go to Paris! (hang in there for 2 weeks! hopefully i can finish this shitty editing beforehand).

oh! and to Germany to eat my favorite cake, streuselkuchen (i bet i spelled it wrong!).

ah!

seperti coba-coba pegang jellyfish di 3D theathre, looks damn real but it isn’t. seperti pengen tinggal di salah satu flat di mansion cantik baker street tapi udah di take orang, seperti liat sepatu di sale FCUK yang udah dipegang orang laen dan orang laennya ngga lepas2in juga. seperti mo nelpon ke orang apa daya free minutes udah abis. seperti ngabisin waktu untuk nungguin orang yang ga jelas dateng apa nggak. seperti pengen jalan-jalan tapi udah muter-muter kesana kesini masih ga tau aja mau kemana. seperti pergi ke Greenwich ternyata di jalan turun hujan. seperti saat laper dan yang ada cuma keripik. dan pas haus yang ada malahan sparkling water yang ga enak bikin belching. seperti menunggu orang di MSN yang tak kunjung online. seperti berusaha mengerti teori termodinamika. seperti menjadi secret admirer.

let it be in the air. at least i’m having fun. whether it’s pointless or not is another issue.

ps: untuk si pemilik senyum manis (alahh!)