Mindbender

he loves black coffee but she always has latte at starbucks

he doesn’t put sugar in his thick tea but she adds three teaspoons of sugar and lots of milk in it..

but thank God, they both are chocaholic.. ^_^

MSN: 25 March 2006, 00.20

"hey what are you up to tomorrow?"

"well, i’m gonna go jogging if i wake up early.. and that’s it, what’s up?"

"i just bought really nice south african red bush tea, it’s herbal tea, so i wonder if you can pop over tomorrow after you finish jogging to have tea with me.."

"well i mostly don’t like herbal tea but i’ll take the challenge cuz it sounds so exotic!"

"haha.. no worries, it’ll be great!"

"of course! but before i come over, i’ll take a shower first and get dressed properly otherwise i’ll smell! hahaha.."

"no u won’t smell, but sure, no probs, around 11?"

"yep! i’ll be there, see you! can’t wait for it!.."

so she got there at 11ish and he was there at the door, grinning widely with his backpack ready and weird looking teapot in his right hand, he said it was so sunny outside so they couldn’t miss it for the world, so they would have the tea in the courtyard, she was definitely fine, in fact, she didn’t mind to have it anywhere as long as she could taste the tea!

they went outside, there was a wide wooden table with long benches in the courtyard next to his flat building, also there was a vase with nice red flowers and surprisingly, a ladybird on the table, with two dots on it! yeah, Spring is coming for sure!!

first he took out two white mugs with cute little puppies on it, she instantly bursted to giggle, he said "ok ok, wait until u see the rest ok!"

he took out two green floral napkins, looked soo ugly, but quickly he said he stole it from the kitchen, hahahaha! and next is a box of ice cream! but he said "don’t let your expectation soaring too high, it’s not ice cream.." he opened it and there were chocolate filled croissants!

next one was saucers, teaspoons, sugar, honey.. whoaa! they had this little picnic in the park, talking about music, musicals, movies (from stupid but hillarious Pink Panther to serious high-brow Memento), their countries, basically just chitchatting about nothing at all.. that was a really nice outing! the tea was perfect and the croissants tasted damn good! but most of all, she was totally amazed, what a nice suprise! she thought it was only regular tea time in the kitchen..

after more than an hour outside, they ended the surprise picnic and he took the vase and threw away the flowers, ohsheessh! she thought it wasn’t his! she thought it was always there on the table, belonged to no one, but apparently he prepared it to the tiniest detail! couldn’t ask for more!

after they got in to the flat and washed the mugs and saucers, the went to see the canal and see how the lock was opened and how the water lowered when there was a boat coming.. she’s never seen it before, she even didn’t know that The Lockeeper’s Cottage means literally a place where the lockeepers help people to open and close the canal’s lock! jeez.. where have u been, gurl?? heehee..

ok she had to go, he walked her to the nearest bus stop, kissed her on both cheeks and off she went away..

jeez she would never forget that! what a really smashing surprise, so she got on the bus with a big smile on her face..

25 March 22.00 Stocks Court Common Room, Gerardo’s Surprise Party..

suddenly someone approached her when she was chatting with her flatmate, and said "hey, how can you do that?"

she thought he was upset about something, but he said "how do you manage to put a smile on your face all the time, even when the fire alarm rang at 4am!"

he said he always noticed her everytime she passes by, and always sees that she’s always in a good mood, either smiling or looking very cheerful..

oh sheesh! what a really nice pick-up line!

"..and rather than looking, it is I who will be found.." (taken from Hannah’s multiply)

Muuuumm..

do i really have to grow up?

do i have to give up my fun reading for my boring academic books? do i have donate all of my hooded sweaters to Oxfam and start to buy smart and spiffy clothes? do i have to stop wearing my trainers and start learning how to walk properly in high heels? sheesh, it makes me stumble all the time and i can’t walk straight wearing those, mum!

i hate giving up my chicklits and Nancy Drew for my stupid value-added and educative books, soo dull, bloody boring, mum! and for me it’s still cooler to dream that i’m Fantomette or Jane Eyre rather than imagining i’m a successful upper-class barrister playing tennis in an expensive country club, wearing Fred Perry clothes all over and drive a fancy car, oh help me God..

do i have to be smart all the times? read newspaper every day, know Nuke technology in Iran, Slobodan’s death cause, Students Strike in France, or Tony’s Labour Party? how if i don’t want to know and choose to be drowned in my Tony Parson’s or Mike Gayle’s books? pretend to enjoy far-fetched movies like Syriana which i don’t even understand AT ALL?? swear to God i enjoy Howl’s Moving Castle and Finding Nemo TENFOLD rather than stupid movies about politics.. i even found Pink Panther quite entertaining with their (French? or Steve Martin’s?) weird sense of humour where all the people falling off and everything drops on to the floor! sheessshh!

call me airhead, call me a daydreamer, call me childish.. or even call me diluded.. i don’t care!

hahaha!

sekarang bisa saya ngetawain diri sendiri setelah berkelakuan seperti doger monyet sarimin dalam hati akhir-akhir ini, siapa bilang saya jatuh cinta? bohong! buktinya tadi malem saya tidur enak sampe pillowmark menghiasi pipi, buktinya napsu makan masih seperti para kuli-kuli yang abis kerja lapangan,  buktinya saya tidak memulas make up dimuka dan berdandan cantik seperti artis sinetron Indonesia, buktinya hari ini saya asik-asik aja padahal tadi malem ada yang ingkar janji,buktinya buktinya.. bla bla..

kalo diem dan nunggu mobil lewat biasanya mobilnya ngga lewat-lewat, malahan motor yang lewat, ngedadahin sambil bilang ‘neng, mau ikut neng?’ aduh bang saya ngga bawa helm, lagian saya lagi nunggu mobil lewat nih, soalnya bawaan saya banyak, kalo naek motor ini koper 20kilo mo ditaro dimana? hahhh, sementara itu motor ngeloyor pergi ngebiarin saya bengong di pinggir jalan, ‘ya udah neng, sana aje nunggu, tadi ditawarin nebeng ngga mau..’

sumpah demi cinta Ken Dedes dan Putri Gunung Ledang, saya tidak akan membiarkan diri saya yang hydrophobia ini tenggelam di kolam keruh ngga jelas dasarnya dan membiarkan saya mati tenggelam keabisan napas dan harapan, mending kita berenang-renang di kolam yang jelas ada tulisannya ‘1.5 meter’ atau ‘2 meter’ supaya tau kemana kaki berpijak, supaya kalo tenggelam juga bisa diselametin sama mas-mas lifeguard bercelana merah yang duduk di kursi tinggi..

saya yang juga acrophobia ini juga ga mau terjun bebas seperti Bungee Jumping, walo udah diikat di perut dan pergelangan kaki, karena saya ngga mau mati konyol gara-gara coba-coba..

dan juga demi martabat Elizabeth Bennet, saya tidak akan membiarkan seoonggok daging ini membuat saya berharap, menunggu, bercucuran aer mata, ketawa, dan berkelakuan konyol lainnya, anggap saja dia fatamorgana, kalo dideketin malahan ngilang, bikin kita udah jauh-jauh jalan kehausan compang camping dengan penuh harapan, tiba diujung sana malahan pingsan karena dehidrasi.. sial!

and yes..

never thought of it, only by hearing a voice can make me soo gleefully happy, as i strolled down aldersgate with my iPod at my both ears listening to I’d Rather Dance with You..

yes, only one phone call, not even more than 5 minutes, and it amazingly could end up with foolish grin on my face and lit the whole day..

yes, it’s like starting from personal, to universal, and at the end.. to unconditional, just to hear a voice from far away and know what he’s up to.. nothing else, and let it be like this..

and the truth is yes i’m soo overwhelmed, without you doing anything, i’m so falling, damn foolhardy me to play this with a sugar coated iceberg, but hell i don’t care, if no one catches me, i wouldn’t regret it, wouldn’t even be sad.. there’s always blessing in every lesson..

yes it’s like eating Original Glazed - Krispy Kreme and found that it’s actually not too sweet inside, like seeing beautiful yellow leaves at the park from far and actually if you see them closely, they’re not that nice, they’re shrivelled up and lying hopelessly on the ground..

Let’s Stay Together is playing, and yes.. i will continue strolling around Hyde Park with those tunes at my ears, daydreaming alone, with my mind wanders away, hoping… if tomorrow can be as astounding as today..

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
You know I will
I will. (I Will - The Beatles..)

Yuhuu.. *procrastination mode:ON*

well.. just got back from Manchester & Liverpool last night, and got some e-mails and chatted with my frens..

1. Dominic.. suddenly out of the blue, he e-mailed, saying that he’s got some probs so he hasn’t contacted me for ages, bla bla.. aarghh miss him! and also JJ and DU people.. TBI is really my HOME! if i had nothing to do, i still stayed there, chitchatting with people, abusing the internet, gossiping with hourly-paid gang, Sandra, Audrey, Achy, Piti, Puput, Natalie, making free phonecalls (heehee), distracting Luke from his works, eating Tati’s cookies.. aahh.. those days.. those were the days when i finished my job at Uni/Cyberlaw Center and then rushed to TBI preparing my back-to-back classes.. aarghh my studeeents, do you still remember me? Umina, Innes Park, Gladstone, Racers2, those are my fav classes.. oh how i miss TEACHING!

2. Muti n Messa.. these kids are my lil siblings! they r soo cool! and i got email from Muti yesterday, saying Messa was off to Aussie with their dad for a short course, here are their common lines : "Kak Cit kapan dateeeng? Kak Cit lets go and watch movie! Kak Cit let’s hop on the car and jalan-jalan, Kak Cit, lets play outside, hide and seek yaa! Kak Cit, Hamam and Afif coming to, cmon stay for a while, kita maen uno.." and how they ride on my car busy playing with my stuff, my cassettes, my cds, asking weird questions "Kak Cit, kapan kawin?" *dzigg* ok kids, time to go home! (ok now my eyes are teary..)

3. Chat with Thina, saying that my sis’ car got hit by our neighbour, an arsehole one, so he bursted into anger instead of being responsible, it was not my sis fault, she was driving slowly and that stupid guy was speeding when he turned! bodoohh.. wish i were there with them, i would kick that guy’s ass! it ended up wiv texting my sista, huuu kangeeenn.. we used to hang out together, go to BSM using its super fast wireless connection, haha! going to Sky FM, place where Nisa works, with Thina, on air for Nihon Ongaku! or late night visit to Upiw’s home, through dark and narrow shortcut, huhuhu.. and remember how me n my sistas spend a night watching DVDs all nite long, me mum shussh-ing us out cuz we were so noisy giggling for the whole nite, and ended up sleeping in the living room and complained about i-didn’t-snore-u-did things for hours, hahaha! they’re the best!

4. The Beatles Museum (lho? hahaha) well, i grew up listening to them all the time, it was my Dad’s fav band, he had a complete collection of the Beatles, including the cassettes, the vinyl, the films, the books, etc.. geezz.. he played it everywhere, at home, in the car, eeeverywhere! no wonder until now i still remember their songs, exactly in which album and the track order of the songs! my gawd! my fav are Penny Lane, Hello Goodbye, Strawberry Fields Forever and I Will.. ok so that visit made me remember me dad, how i got bored listening to them, but now i found that i *subconsciously* like them! including me dad’s other songs, Frank Sinatra, Matt Monroe, Simon and Garfunkel.. hahaha.. jeez what an oldies gurl!

ok enuf reminiscing for today.. otherwise i’m gonna shed tears soon! hahaha..

what the f"£%?

ye man, yesterday suddenly someone said that to me, "Oh dear Citta, you just don’t understand the game.." oh sheessh, i don’t even understand what bloody game that he’s talking about.. so i asked him back, what game? i ain’t no play any game.. oh FYI, that was bloody 8.30am in the morning, damn cold, i was still under my duvet, half-asleep, curled up comfortably with my mobile at my left ear..

and his answer was "boys and girls game.." aarghhh blooodyy hell!! after asking this thing to half a dozen random people that i met today and yersteday, it’s still friggin confusing..

ohyeah, and he also said, well i can see everything as a game (bloody hell! are you a philosophy student talking about Hegel or Kant? damn this is not my cup of tea!) and to get your objective means winning the game.. ok! lets get out from this room people! its like Syriana movie, too much detail, d’oh!

oh oh! and he also sed.. everything has to be logic.. ohmannn.. poor chap, can somebody please give him a self-motivating book "How to Deal with Communication Problem" ohplease.. lemme go back to sleep.. its freakin’ 8.30am..

ok lets put it like this, i am a very straightforward person, if you wanna know something, just ask me for God sake! don’t put it into twisted words that makes it even more complicated ok, cuz believe me.. i don’t understand, not even close to it, and one more thing.. i’m telling you the truth here.. i’m not playing any bloody game..