My own happiness..
Dunno why, suddenly wanna participate in this blog shit thingy.. daaamn! what i should do now is READING my lecture handouts.. *sigh*
Ok so here i am, in London, to much time for contemplating my life, and now i’m thinking about my own happiness.. what i really want, what i wish i could achieve, what i want to do in my life.. and i reached to some points which are..:
1. Job
I always want to do something for people around me, to touch people’s lives, to make sure that what i do will be remembered, will be useful, to repair what is wrong, and bunch of idealistic ideas.. but how? here, in London, i’ve been thinking abt what i really want to do after i finish my master’s degree and get back to my country, office jobs suck, my campus is not challenging enough, my part time job was fun, but i got stuck! it went to nowhere.. and what i want is something BIG, something MEANINGFUL! i don’t need big money, i just don’t want to do a job which only has benefit for me, i want it to be useful for other people.. aha! mebi being a volunteer in a non-profit NGO and go to somewhere isolated in the middle of nowhere, nah nah, i’m not that extreme.. i just want to have a new experience, something that i haven’t done before and it has to be thrilling.. maaaann i still can’t figure out what!!
2. Love
Hmm.. i want someone who’s there for me, in good or bad situations, by my side through my happiness and my sadness, doesn’t mean that this guy has to be near me all the time, but he’s always there, for me, i don’t care if he’s one bus stop away, one call away, or one flight away.. as long as his heart is all for me.. that’s what i need.. someone that i can count on, who will stand up for me if the situation is getting worse, someone who can say what he wants and fights for me, i want a good friend, a balanced counterpart, someone that i can talk to, someone who loves me for me, hmm.. i don’t care about stupid requirements that this guy has to be phisically bla bla, cute, good looking, smart, rich, tall, bla bla.. nay! i only need a best friend, someone to share..
3. Family
this is the thing that influences me most, without my sisters, my mom, my dad, i wouldn’t be who i am right now, because of them i can see how people appreciate different values of life, i can stand on my own feet and always try to reach what i want in my life.. so my greatest happiness for me is to see my sisters grow with a capability to tolerate people with different perspective, that life is fascinating, that every single day is meaningful so you have to seize it, i want to see them grab their lives, open their eyes and see the world not just inside the box, do what they really want to do and be happy with that, that is my greatest happiness above all, so mitta, be the greatest violinist, and ditta, be a good lawyer (or housewife? heehee), anything that makes your life meaningful, anything you can enjoy.. because their happiness is also mine.. ^_^
oh well.. my happiness.. fyuhh..
shit, i’m rambling on.. better stop it, back to reading list..
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