Mindbender

When i was in the middle of my tutorial, suddenly my mind wandered away (heehee.. maklum that was 2.5hrs tuts and we kept arguing if this, if that, etc.. exciting at the beginning, soo dull at the end..) about GUYS! yeah guys.. well in the class, there was a british guy, he is soo damn smart and witty…

eeietttsss doesn’t mean that i have a crush on this guy! read thoroughly first ya, then u can give your comment! well when we discussed why shipped TVs can be discoloured (it’s a part of a case ok, don’t ask!) i said mebi it was because of sea water, and he said.. ACID RAIN! holyy! and when we were talking about the goods that are stowed on the deck, he started to ramble on about seeing ships which has piles of stuff on its deck and looked like three double decker buses… ha! how did he get that crazy imagination? beats me! all in all, this guy knew how to see the loopholes in the cases and asked really good questions til the tutor was amazed, actually, that was why it finished so late..

oh the point iiiss.. suddenly i realize why smart and witty guys look very attractive in my eyes, lets imagine if you had to put aside all the lust and physical contacts, u would still stick with him because he’s still got his wittiness, his brain, and u wouldn’t be bored because it’s all that matters at the end.. his personality.. someone that you can admire, someone you can talk to about everything, and laugh at the same jokes..

someone said that a marriage is like a long conversation, can you imagine uf your husband is a really dense person, no conversational skills whatsoever, but he’s soo goddamn good looking.. hmm i don’t think i could survive with such person..

and the point of this entry is.. dunno! i just feel soo lazy to study, i’m just deviating! hahaha..

ok, go back to study..

 

ok all of a sudden i got this e-mail from my dear friend Vina..

mebi she sent me this to make me open my eyes or to make me THINK all over again.. here we go..

read people! read and check on every line, it’s soo true..

1. If a man wants you,nothing can keep him away.If he doesn’t want you,nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man’s character,leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

6. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can’t "be friends." A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

8. Have faith in God regarding your relationship,but don’t let faith make you stupid.God does things decent and in order.

9. Don’t settle.

10. Don’t stay because you think "it will get better."You’ll be mad a year after for staying when things are not better.

11. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

12. There’s only one ‘reason’ a man dumps you; he doesn’t want you.

13. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.If something bothers you,speak up.

15. Like from the show Sex and the City,if he doesn’t call,he just isn’t that interested.

16. Know when to cut the cord,don’t be strung along.

17. Don’t fall for the "I’m confused role".Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don’t wait for him,move on).

18. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you,watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family(not just mom).

19. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man,nothing more nothing less.

20. Actions speak louder than words.

21. Never let a man define who you are.

22. If he cheated with you,he’ll cheat on you.

23. Just because he says he loves you,doesn’t mean that he won’t hurt you and it doesn’t mean that you are meant to be with him.

24. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the ..1 person in your life.

25. Love is a verb.

26. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available,someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

27. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

28. If you don’t love self…you can’t love anyone else.

29. You cannot mend someone else’s broken heart

30. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage…deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

31. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complimentary…not supplementary..

32. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.

33. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions.Respond to the actions.

34. Don’t fall for the "I’m not the loving type"…when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn’t do for you.

35. Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are,and you’re always readily available to him he takes it for granted..

36. When it’s time to let go;let go.

37. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

38. Never believe a man that tells u he want to be with you, while he’s with someone else, - if he wanted to be with you,he would make it happen more sooner than later.

39. Don’t be at a man’s door,make him open the door for you,because a real man would do this on his own.

40. There is someone out there worthy to be in your life…

the bottom line is.. it comes in just 6 words….
.HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU

u kno wat vin.. it’s so damn true..

Dunno why, suddenly wanna participate in this blog shit thingy.. daaamn! what i should do now is READING my lecture handouts.. *sigh*

Ok so here i am, in London, to much time for contemplating my life, and now i’m thinking about my own happiness.. what i really want, what i wish i could achieve, what i want to do in my life.. and i reached to some points which are..:

1. Job

I always want to do something for people around me, to touch people’s lives, to make sure that what i do will be remembered, will be useful, to repair what is wrong, and bunch of idealistic ideas.. but how? here, in London, i’ve been thinking abt what i really want to do after i finish my master’s degree and get back to my country, office jobs suck, my campus is not challenging enough, my part time job was fun, but i got stuck! it went to nowhere.. and what i want is something BIG, something MEANINGFUL! i don’t need big money, i just don’t want to do a job which only has benefit for me, i want it to be useful for other people.. aha! mebi being a volunteer in a non-profit NGO and go to somewhere isolated in the middle of nowhere, nah nah, i’m not that extreme.. i just want to have a new experience, something that i haven’t done before and it has to be thrilling.. maaaann i still can’t figure out what!!

2. Love

Hmm.. i want someone who’s there for me, in good or bad situations, by my side through my happiness and my sadness, doesn’t mean that this guy has to be near me all the time, but he’s always there, for me, i don’t care if he’s one bus stop away, one call away, or one flight away.. as long as his heart is all for me.. that’s what i need.. someone that i can count on, who will stand up for me if the situation is getting worse, someone who can say what he wants and fights for me, i want a good friend, a balanced counterpart, someone that i can talk to, someone who loves me for me, hmm.. i don’t care about stupid requirements that this guy has to be phisically bla bla, cute, good looking, smart, rich, tall, bla bla.. nay! i only need a best friend, someone to share..

3. Family

this is the thing that influences me most, without my sisters, my mom, my dad, i wouldn’t be who i am right now, because of them i can see how people appreciate different values of life, i can stand on my own feet and always try to reach what i want in my life.. so my greatest happiness for me is to see my sisters grow with a capability to tolerate people with different perspective, that life is fascinating, that every single day is meaningful so you have to seize it, i want to see them grab their lives, open their eyes and see the world not just inside the box, do what they really want to do and be happy with that, that is my greatest happiness above all, so mitta, be the greatest violinist, and ditta, be a good lawyer (or housewife? heehee), anything that makes your life meaningful, anything you can enjoy.. because their happiness is also mine.. ^_^

oh well.. my happiness.. fyuhh..

shit, i’m rambling on.. better stop it, back to reading list..

^_^